You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
Rewinding.
31 December, 2011 / 12/31/2011 10:41:00 pm
Heyhey. 2011 is gonna end real soon. Time really flies huh? Having mixed feelings now. 2012 is gonna be a busy year for me, i guess. I'm gonna be studying and mugging for O's soon. Thinking of which, kinda gives me butterflies in my stomach :( Well, 2011 wasn't a good year for me as compared to the others, but its not bad either? Have to say that I really grew up thou.
Start of the year, got into 3Epic, didn't really liked it because all my good friends got into a different class. But hey, if I hadn't got into a different class I wouldn't get to so much of my friends now yeah? So in 3E I got to know all those fun people, and I really had fun in class. Enjoyed my lessons due to some of the teachers in WW hehehehehe. I really had a hard time trying to cope with A maths(or rather my studies) and I Have to say that I'm really lucky to have many people to teach me and guide me along with my studies.
In 2011 I also had been involved in many cca stuffs, like the cca fair vice-chair and being one of the BNCO instructors. Being the vice chair was hard, really hard. I know that I had caused many unhappinss to many people, but I'm still in the process of learning yeah. Same for the BNCO thing, it's like my first time planning for the zone event, I consider myself as very lucky to be one of the instructors. Learnt a lot of things like leadership and how to communicate with others, and it was fun to know parkcorp ;) We may not talk now but I guess aft O's we'll party out yeah.
Oh, most imptly, FAC. It was a total shock for our team to get that trophy. But it could be luck right? Still remembered that day we stood in front, holding hands, and prayed. We finally contributed something to WWSJ! Oh and my officers for treating us to movies/ food aft we won FAC. okay bragging now alalalala. Thanks to O's/T's, esp my team! Without one of them we won't even win.
In 2011 I also realized that Friends come and go. Some changed too :(. Yeap, many friends whom are really close to me in 2010 left as soon as 2011 come. Its kinda sad that some of my best friends no longer talk to me, but well. I appreciate those who never left me, and even make an effort to talk to me! Esp those guys who bothered to talk to me when they new that - left LOL. Even thou we don't always talk, you guys are still my friends yo. I still remember those happy moments we had okay. So made new friends in 2011. Never regret it. So I learnt not to judge a book my its cover. Those people that I thought/ heard that are known to be crappy turned out to be nice people!! Learnt not to listen to others blindly.
Oh yeah, appreciated that my pri sch friend (s) are still by my side even thou we only see each other like once every year. So you see, some friendship stays. Knew so many awesome people this year, too many to mention, they shoudl know who they are anyway haha.Although I had not know/talked to everyone in 3E(like serously IKR!!), but I believe 2012 will be better yeah?^^
2012, I don't know what will happen, but I'll really try to make the best outta it. I pray for world peace, and no more serious disasters :(. && everyone to be happy and me and all my friends to do well in O's hahaha. okay w/e. And I pray the world not to end in 2012 because it will be sucha waste for me to take O's, and I still want to do many things like travel around the world when I grow old so please please please please please.
Ending 2011.
f.
30 December, 2011 / 12/30/2011 03:52:00 pm
Talking is cheap. So don't you sit there, and talk like you know everything, when you aren't willing to stand up and do something okay. Yes I should respect you but you should show some basic respect for me too. Talk is nothing without action, get it? All you do is just to sit there and reprimand us. Why not you set a good example for us.
2011 Is gonna end real soon. How time flies. Shall start writing new year resolutions properly for the first time!
In pursuit.
time.
23 December, 2011 / 12/23/2011 11:03:00 pm
You know what, it would really be good if you all can just shut up and give me sometime to chill myself mentally instead of harping on it repeatedly. Do you know that sometimes the more you ask someone on the verge of tearing to stop crying, they will end up crying more? So the more you try to calm me down the more frustrated I can become. I'm that weird. So please, sometimes you just got to leave me alone.
l o v e
22 December, 2011 / 12/22/2011 09:18:00 pm
I bet many people around my age has been mocking me for never being involved in a r/s before. Yes, I may not had my first love, but I'm glad tht I have not had my first heartbreak.
Many asked me if I had liked anyone before or had got into a r/s before or whatever shit,asking me if I envy those kind of ppeople who are in a r/s. Frankly speaking sometimes I do envy those happy couples who can get together as a friend, lover and a family, like siblings; Someone who's there by your side when no one else's with you, someone to cheer you up when you're sad, someone who know you so well and you loved so much and you love everything of him/her and you just wna spend your rest of your life with etcetc. But that also means that your freedom, your time would need to be given to your other half and sometimes you gotta compromise to some of their crap or w/e not? Then what if one day your love crashes, you'll get emotional over it and can't concentrate on any other important things. No, I'm not saying that its not good to be in a r/s and that you must be single or its a waste of time to be with your bf/gf or your bf/gf has to be like a lover & sibling & friend & family. I mean like I find ntg wrong for someone to be single and not get steady for the sake of letting anyone know that he/she's attached. WHATEVER.
They loved each other but could never be t ogether becuz its not the right time.
Because you need fate too.
afraid to pursue.
21 December, 2011 / 12/21/2011 03:44:00 pm
So you see, everyone have dreams. But who really dare to pursue their dreams? We always wait for chances to come by to us, but they don't always come to everyone of us, all the time. But what if the chance comes by and you didn't managed to grab it, just because you are shy or timid and afraid? Of cause, opportunity don't always come right in your face cause not everyone would be so lucky thou :/
Note to self: seize the opportunity when its here. Don't just let it pass by. pursue your dreams because you'll never know, one day, your dreams comes true.
Be daring. Time waits for no one.
replaced.
20 December, 2011 / 12/20/2011 01:19:00 am
I'm the kind of girl who always get replaced from time to time. I hate it when I had to adapt into a new lifestyle every few months. I'm sick and tired of it. I'm sick of people just come and go as and when they like, sick of people just treating me as some fucking substitutes, sick of always having me to try to compromise to everyone, sick of havong those feelings fading away, drifting from people whom I used to be so close. Well i used to be someone who hates to be alone. No I'm not afraid of being alone, just dislike it, because i thought that when you're alone, I'll just be some pathetic shit and prolly.die alone or something. But actually the worst feeling is when you are stuck in a crowded place, but you feel so lonely. The weather changed so do feelings fade. Nothing could stay the same for me, I've got to get used to it.
18 December, 2011 / 12/18/2011 07:07:00 pm
It's very irritating and pathetic when I myself don't even get what I'm trying to do/say. v e r y.
__
Anyway, I can't wait for Christmas. Boxing day anyone? :/
16 December, 2011 / 12/16/2011 07:28:00 pm
Hey all. Went to work for some catering services w my godmom and mama.Got to learn some new things whileI earn some $$. hehehe. So i forgo sleeping and those time playing with computer or watching tv/doing some hw time and woke up @ 8am which was darn early for me during the hols. Went to this company where they produce(?) some contact lenses products. Actually the work was kinda easy? Except for the keeping those tables/ trays or whatevr not Quite fun cuz I got to eat some yummy stuffs, while getting to knw more people. Oh yeah I managed to eat some deep fried ice cream,lol. okay it sounds abit dumb but its moi first time working yaw.
hmm holiday is ending soon so i should hurry up and finish my hws. Oh yeah, I'm using my phn to blog so I can't seem to upload the fried ice cream here. Too baddddddd.
p.s gonna watch tv whole night since missed out quite a lot!!
someone lik him doesn't seem bad ya know. Too bad.
hohoho.
13 December, 2011 / 12/13/2011 06:52:00 pm
Its only 13th December but I've got the feel very strong urge to celebrate Christmas already.
anyone? :( Shat.
cause i don't believe in you anymore.
12 December, 2011 / 12/12/2011 10:46:00 pm
So. It is really awkward when you made a comment on twitter or facebook, and that particular person you are referring to, retweets/ comment/ liked your status. Its like..
Anyways, Christmas is around the corner & new year is coming soon. Maybe I shall do smtg if I have the time. oh and to do some new year resolutions? It may be early to talk about this now, but I've never write myself a new year resolution. hmmm. So why not try something new? ;) oh. shall try to finish my hols assignment soon(hopefully by this week) and strt reading some FA/HN stuffs to prepare myself for trng. time is precious so I no longer have much time to waste. don't wanna cause the team be pulled down cuz of me or smtg. Yeah people may say that I've got no life but since its the last year, so prolly I should do smtg good? Another T. or some honour wouldn't be bad right? heheh.
Just a little afraid to pursue. >
TSKTSKTSK stomach aching after eating those sushi i bought few hrs ago :'( BTW I SERIOUSLY THINK I'M CHILDISH AND LAME AND WHATEVER BLABLA I WAS B.T.W. BB.
maturity.
/ 12/12/2011 02:35:00 am
Hi. Listening to some of my fav kpop songs now while playing with my phone hehehe. I'm posting this using my phone cuz i thought that it was time to turn of my desktop. Okay I'm childish. So I read thru my past posts and realised how much I've changed these two years. Two years. counted as long or short? hehe. Realised how much I've changed, and how much things, big or small had ran thru my life. So I was kinda childish amd lame amd vulgar and noob and cute and idiotic and life-full last time. I must say things changes, but those past events, they're kinda memorable actually :>. Kinda glad that i didn't delete this blog few months ago. Because they're all memories yaw haha.
lots of things happened these few months while I neglected this blog of mine. anyway I've decided to revive this blog because I wanted to pen down all those moments in my life, so that I won't forget them so easily. SOOOO. shall start to pen(type) down all my happenings soon.
// Its kinda amazing how things change. friends becomes enemies, enemies turned out to be one of your besties; what you used t dislike, you love it so much now. Those things you never thought it would happen, happened. Those thoughts you thought it would never occur, are always kept in your mind. But sometimes, memories don't vanish. Your dreams too. Anyway anyways, I forgot the feel of having to blog about somthing. i kept repeating stuffs here and there. so..yeah. urgh whatever. gn.
You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
Rewinding.
31 December, 2011 / 12/31/2011 10:41:00 pm
Heyhey. 2011 is gonna end real soon. Time really flies huh? Having mixed feelings now. 2012 is gonna be a busy year for me, i guess. I'm gonna be studying and mugging for O's soon. Thinking of which, kinda gives me butterflies in my stomach :( Well, 2011 wasn't a good year for me as compared to the others, but its not bad either? Have to say that I really grew up thou.
Start of the year, got into 3Epic, didn't really liked it because all my good friends got into a different class. But hey, if I hadn't got into a different class I wouldn't get to so much of my friends now yeah? So in 3E I got to know all those fun people, and I really had fun in class. Enjoyed my lessons due to some of the teachers in WW hehehehehe. I really had a hard time trying to cope with A maths(or rather my studies) and I Have to say that I'm really lucky to have many people to teach me and guide me along with my studies.
In 2011 I also had been involved in many cca stuffs, like the cca fair vice-chair and being one of the BNCO instructors. Being the vice chair was hard, really hard. I know that I had caused many unhappinss to many people, but I'm still in the process of learning yeah. Same for the BNCO thing, it's like my first time planning for the zone event, I consider myself as very lucky to be one of the instructors. Learnt a lot of things like leadership and how to communicate with others, and it was fun to know parkcorp ;) We may not talk now but I guess aft O's we'll party out yeah.
Oh, most imptly, FAC. It was a total shock for our team to get that trophy. But it could be luck right? Still remembered that day we stood in front, holding hands, and prayed. We finally contributed something to WWSJ! Oh and my officers for treating us to movies/ food aft we won FAC. okay bragging now alalalala. Thanks to O's/T's, esp my team! Without one of them we won't even win.
In 2011 I also realized that Friends come and go. Some changed too :(. Yeap, many friends whom are really close to me in 2010 left as soon as 2011 come. Its kinda sad that some of my best friends no longer talk to me, but well. I appreciate those who never left me, and even make an effort to talk to me! Esp those guys who bothered to talk to me when they new that - left LOL. Even thou we don't always talk, you guys are still my friends yo. I still remember those happy moments we had okay. So made new friends in 2011. Never regret it. So I learnt not to judge a book my its cover. Those people that I thought/ heard that are known to be crappy turned out to be nice people!! Learnt not to listen to others blindly.
Oh yeah, appreciated that my pri sch friend (s) are still by my side even thou we only see each other like once every year. So you see, some friendship stays. Knew so many awesome people this year, too many to mention, they shoudl know who they are anyway haha.Although I had not know/talked to everyone in 3E(like serously IKR!!), but I believe 2012 will be better yeah?^^
2012, I don't know what will happen, but I'll really try to make the best outta it. I pray for world peace, and no more serious disasters :(. && everyone to be happy and me and all my friends to do well in O's hahaha. okay w/e. And I pray the world not to end in 2012 because it will be sucha waste for me to take O's, and I still want to do many things like travel around the world when I grow old so please please please please please.
Ending 2011.
f.
30 December, 2011 / 12/30/2011 03:52:00 pm
Talking is cheap. So don't you sit there, and talk like you know everything, when you aren't willing to stand up and do something okay. Yes I should respect you but you should show some basic respect for me too. Talk is nothing without action, get it? All you do is just to sit there and reprimand us. Why not you set a good example for us.
2011 Is gonna end real soon. How time flies. Shall start writing new year resolutions properly for the first time!
In pursuit.
time.
23 December, 2011 / 12/23/2011 11:03:00 pm
You know what, it would really be good if you all can just shut up and give me sometime to chill myself mentally instead of harping on it repeatedly. Do you know that sometimes the more you ask someone on the verge of tearing to stop crying, they will end up crying more? So the more you try to calm me down the more frustrated I can become. I'm that weird. So please, sometimes you just got to leave me alone.
l o v e
22 December, 2011 / 12/22/2011 09:18:00 pm
I bet many people around my age has been mocking me for never being involved in a r/s before. Yes, I may not had my first love, but I'm glad tht I have not had my first heartbreak.
Many asked me if I had liked anyone before or had got into a r/s before or whatever shit,asking me if I envy those kind of ppeople who are in a r/s. Frankly speaking sometimes I do envy those happy couples who can get together as a friend, lover and a family, like siblings; Someone who's there by your side when no one else's with you, someone to cheer you up when you're sad, someone who know you so well and you loved so much and you love everything of him/her and you just wna spend your rest of your life with etcetc. But that also means that your freedom, your time would need to be given to your other half and sometimes you gotta compromise to some of their crap or w/e not? Then what if one day your love crashes, you'll get emotional over it and can't concentrate on any other important things. No, I'm not saying that its not good to be in a r/s and that you must be single or its a waste of time to be with your bf/gf or your bf/gf has to be like a lover & sibling & friend & family. I mean like I find ntg wrong for someone to be single and not get steady for the sake of letting anyone know that he/she's attached. WHATEVER.
They loved each other but could never be t ogether becuz its not the right time.
Because you need fate too.
afraid to pursue.
21 December, 2011 / 12/21/2011 03:44:00 pm
So you see, everyone have dreams. But who really dare to pursue their dreams? We always wait for chances to come by to us, but they don't always come to everyone of us, all the time. But what if the chance comes by and you didn't managed to grab it, just because you are shy or timid and afraid? Of cause, opportunity don't always come right in your face cause not everyone would be so lucky thou :/
Note to self: seize the opportunity when its here. Don't just let it pass by. pursue your dreams because you'll never know, one day, your dreams comes true.
Be daring. Time waits for no one.
replaced.
20 December, 2011 / 12/20/2011 01:19:00 am
I'm the kind of girl who always get replaced from time to time. I hate it when I had to adapt into a new lifestyle every few months. I'm sick and tired of it. I'm sick of people just come and go as and when they like, sick of people just treating me as some fucking substitutes, sick of always having me to try to compromise to everyone, sick of havong those feelings fading away, drifting from people whom I used to be so close. Well i used to be someone who hates to be alone. No I'm not afraid of being alone, just dislike it, because i thought that when you're alone, I'll just be some pathetic shit and prolly.die alone or something. But actually the worst feeling is when you are stuck in a crowded place, but you feel so lonely. The weather changed so do feelings fade. Nothing could stay the same for me, I've got to get used to it.
18 December, 2011 / 12/18/2011 07:07:00 pm
It's very irritating and pathetic when I myself don't even get what I'm trying to do/say. v e r y.
__
Anyway, I can't wait for Christmas. Boxing day anyone? :/
16 December, 2011 / 12/16/2011 07:28:00 pm
Hey all. Went to work for some catering services w my godmom and mama.Got to learn some new things whileI earn some $$. hehehe. So i forgo sleeping and those time playing with computer or watching tv/doing some hw time and woke up @ 8am which was darn early for me during the hols. Went to this company where they produce(?) some contact lenses products. Actually the work was kinda easy? Except for the keeping those tables/ trays or whatevr not Quite fun cuz I got to eat some yummy stuffs, while getting to knw more people. Oh yeah I managed to eat some deep fried ice cream,lol. okay it sounds abit dumb but its moi first time working yaw.
hmm holiday is ending soon so i should hurry up and finish my hws. Oh yeah, I'm using my phn to blog so I can't seem to upload the fried ice cream here. Too baddddddd.
p.s gonna watch tv whole night since missed out quite a lot!!
someone lik him doesn't seem bad ya know. Too bad.
hohoho.
13 December, 2011 / 12/13/2011 06:52:00 pm
Its only 13th December but I've got the feel very strong urge to celebrate Christmas already.
anyone? :( Shat.
cause i don't believe in you anymore.
12 December, 2011 / 12/12/2011 10:46:00 pm
So. It is really awkward when you made a comment on twitter or facebook, and that particular person you are referring to, retweets/ comment/ liked your status. Its like..
Anyways, Christmas is around the corner & new year is coming soon. Maybe I shall do smtg if I have the time. oh and to do some new year resolutions? It may be early to talk about this now, but I've never write myself a new year resolution. hmmm. So why not try something new? ;) oh. shall try to finish my hols assignment soon(hopefully by this week) and strt reading some FA/HN stuffs to prepare myself for trng. time is precious so I no longer have much time to waste. don't wanna cause the team be pulled down cuz of me or smtg. Yeah people may say that I've got no life but since its the last year, so prolly I should do smtg good? Another T. or some honour wouldn't be bad right? heheh.
Just a little afraid to pursue. >
TSKTSKTSK stomach aching after eating those sushi i bought few hrs ago :'( BTW I SERIOUSLY THINK I'M CHILDISH AND LAME AND WHATEVER BLABLA I WAS B.T.W. BB.
maturity.
/ 12/12/2011 02:35:00 am
Hi. Listening to some of my fav kpop songs now while playing with my phone hehehe. I'm posting this using my phone cuz i thought that it was time to turn of my desktop. Okay I'm childish. So I read thru my past posts and realised how much I've changed these two years. Two years. counted as long or short? hehe. Realised how much I've changed, and how much things, big or small had ran thru my life. So I was kinda childish amd lame amd vulgar and noob and cute and idiotic and life-full last time. I must say things changes, but those past events, they're kinda memorable actually :>. Kinda glad that i didn't delete this blog few months ago. Because they're all memories yaw haha.
lots of things happened these few months while I neglected this blog of mine. anyway I've decided to revive this blog because I wanted to pen down all those moments in my life, so that I won't forget them so easily. SOOOO. shall start to pen(type) down all my happenings soon.
// Its kinda amazing how things change. friends becomes enemies, enemies turned out to be one of your besties; what you used t dislike, you love it so much now. Those things you never thought it would happen, happened. Those thoughts you thought it would never occur, are always kept in your mind. But sometimes, memories don't vanish. Your dreams too. Anyway anyways, I forgot the feel of having to blog about somthing. i kept repeating stuffs here and there. so..yeah. urgh whatever. gn.
